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                     Caledonian Market

Transplanted for a day from the harsher clime

The pearlies gleam, the feather bob and sway

And Table Mountain witnesses the mime

Of scenes once famous in their place and day.

Here is the spot where browsing will repay

The wanderer with half a score of tales,

If such he seek, and bargains by the way;

Where wits are sharp and humour never fails.

These things we laugh about – who knows what pride

They held for someone else. And even now

Some pieces have not sought their stalls dry-eyed

But speak of sacrifice. To these I bow.

Come buy! Be generous and gay!

But in your hearts salute a passing day.

  

(Caledonian Market in aid of the Deaf Friday April 29th.

I am told the original no longer functions in its old London habitat. D.S.)


                          Calendar

 I doubt that I should have the courage to face

A calendar that had no place

For Christmas Day

And Easter . . . and Whitsuntide . . .

The days of grace

symbolizing the birth

Of selfless love

As rightful ruler of the earth . . .

And loves immortality . . .

And the initiation of man

Into the living flame

Of immortal love, everywhere

And forever the same.

Even they who cannot bear to share

Belief absorb the reflected light.

And night is less dark to wear.

 

Dorothea Spears.


                 Capacity for Vision

 It needs big-minded men to rise above

The pettiness of personality.

It needs a greater vision, broader love

To stake this span of brief mortality,

Submerging self to fit the Master Plan,

In greater loyalties less forgot,

Subjecting love of men to love of Man

That seeks to know not who is right, but what.

Small souls afflicted with myopia,

Who cannot see beyond the expedient near

Can never glimpse the bright Utopia

Beyond the puny dykes of hate and fear

With which they strive to stem this breeching sea –

The evolution of Humanity.

 

“Veritas”

Welbeloond Rd

Constantia, C.P.


                        Cape Autumn

 The Autumn sings the swan song of the year

Because she knows that Winter's time is near.

The soft and gentle rain is weeping with sorrow

Because she knows the secret of tomorrow . . −

But in between the sun Is shining with laughter

Because he knows the secret of what comes after.

The clouds grow richer with the dying day

And melody is more mature in May.

An echo of the tune October sings

In northern hemisphere to migrant wings

O singing colour swelling to perfection!

O beautiful death − that ends in resurrection!

I love the deeper notes that Autumn knows,

And leaves are lovely when the swallow goes.

             

Dorothea Spears


              Cape Autumn the oaks

 The oaks… the oaks..! God, how they blaze

and burn with colour through the pale blue haze

of waning May,

flaunting their loveliness day after day!

The slim white poplars are already nude

and that sad prude

the dusky pine, is sombre in her solitude.

The careless, shaggy-haired chrysanthemums

are turning rusty: winter comes

apace

and fleet on fleet of proud cloud galleons race

across chilly skies,

and mist is in the eyes

of morning.

On the sea the wild white horses snort a warning

to fearful ships: the mountain towers gray

above the troubled bay…

But oh, the splendour of the oaks out Newlands way!

 


                      Indian Summer

 This is a day for dreaming

And sitting in the sun,

This unfamiliar sun that has the seeming

Of gentleness, with none

Of that mid-summer arrogance of gleaming

That causes men to shun

His company on other days.

Now he is kind:

Every wind is sleeping

And all the earth’s resigned…

Accepting, and at peace. Reaping

Is over, and the mind

Is turned to winter, keeping

The memory of spring

Buried under scarlet flowers

And flaming berries, and the wing

Of silence broods above the dreaming hours.

This is a day when men should be outside

Absorbing peace to store

For winter, when the tempests ride

Unchallenged and the elements are at war.

Earth that holds the Spring

Within its core

Need have no fear of winter’s bludgeoning.

 

  “Veritas”, Constantia, C.P.


                    Cape Summer Day

 What shall I say

Now that the splendid Spring has given way

To Summer’s dusty and dishevelled day?

Now that the Southeast wind

Unleashes all we bind

And frays the edges of the disposition

Of mankind

With its repeated inquisition?

The sun, with unappealing ray,

Assails the unprotected earth

And cracks the soil to leering mirth

Ere it has given birth to half its flowers…

Now that the pregnant hours

Of half forgotten Spring have lost their powers.

What shall I say

To panting mortals on this summer’s day?

What shall I say but this:

Does the grape flinch from the sun’s kiss,

Or does the grape refrain?

Or have you heard the apple tree complain,

Who hoard the savour of the sun

For our replenishment when day is done?

 

“Veritas”

Constantia, C.P.


                     CAPE TOWN

 Southern city, nestled snugly

Twixt the mountain and the Bay;
Formed of confidence and contrast.
Storm and sunshine, grave and gay;
Mothered by the restful mountain.
Fathered by the restless sea;
Sponsored by the southern sunshine
And the winds that wander free;
Steadfast as her mountain mother.
Changeful as her ocean sire;

Fickle as her southern sponsors,

  Warm with ardour and desire.

This is Cape Town, O, ye traveller.

  Fair, alluring, fancy-free—

But if thou shouldst stay to love her

She will make a slave of thee!

                 

             DOROTHEA GRAHAM BOTHA


            Cape Winter

 Who says the garden keeps

No colours up her sleeves

For when the weeping Winter creeps

Across the grass, and drips from all the eaves?

Who says the garden sleeps

When all the tired leaves

Are richly raked in random heaps

Whence earth the beauty of the year retrieves.

 

I draw the curtains wide

To greet each laggard day –

The eager garden leaps inside

With green and grey glamorous words to say.

I tell you they have lied.

Although the skies be grey,

Who say that all the colours died

When Autumn said goodbye, and slipped away.

 

 

The week mid-winter came

The red-hot pokers told;

Poinsettias’ vivid flash of fame;

Mimosas’ unadulterated gold;

That Winter is but a name.

And who complains of cold

When heaths and proteas flaunt their fame

And aloes, firethorns, gold showers are bold?

 

Airlie Close

Constantia, C.P.


               Cecil John Rhodes

A Reverie at the Memorial, Mowbray.

 

Here was a Man; too big for puny minds

To comprehend. He thought in continents

Where we, absorbed in little interests, spoke

In trivial terms or morgen or of towns.

He thought in centuries while we thought in years.

A Man of Iron? Perhaps …We thought him hard

Because his vision brooked no obstacles.

Impatient of the prides that barred his path,

The myriad things that stood across his way,

He swept them all aside with ruthless hand-

He must go forward, let them stand or fall!

The vision must be wrought, the dream achieved!

We are small men; small virtues and small faults

Our lot in life. And do we dare condemn

This great man that his weakness matched his might?

 

Ah Rhodes, how human were thy frailties.

But how sublime thy vision! Canst thou not

Let fall thy mantle on some other son

Of Africa? For she has need of such.

She needs big men, and strong, and unafraid;

She needs great visions such as thou hast dreamt

On that rude bench, from which thy heart could see

The hinterland – thy soul, the centuries.


                Celebrity Concert

 Every seat was taken in the Hall

To bear Celebrity's interpretation

Of Beethoven's Concerto

A tapestry of faces, wall to wall;

A pattern or people at peace, a pattern whole.

 

The river of music flowed about us lapping

The consciousness, buoying the boat of soul,

Keeping wonder afloat and beautifying the night.

Followed the usual ovation,

The friendly thunder of clapping,

Everybody clapping all together

Blended by the music's ebb and flow -

Until the lightning struck and broke the clement weather,

Vivid flashes focusing with bright

Repeated stabs the furthest corner . . .

I shall not remember how Christian Ferras played

 

I shall remember two dark music-loving faces

Suddenly etched against the cruel light

Flashed again and again on their humble places.

I shall remember the broken pattern of people at peace.

I shall remember an era ended.

The rending of the tapestry music and men had made

That cannot be mended.

 

Dorothea Spears


                            Cello

 Who would think, to see a cello

Leaning nonchalantly against a chair,

The pathos and the passion and the glory

Hidden there.

Silent, waiting to be wakened

Waiting the hand to touch the mellow strings

And give the folded beauty wings?

Perhaps some people are cellos.

 

Dorothea Spears


                    Certainty

This is certain: whatever else be vain

This is certain: Spring will come again.

Whatever is uncertain this is sure:

That life and love and death will endure.

 

Airlie Close

Constantia


                 Chance encounter

 Opportunity so often comes in disguise.

We meet him in the street

And look in his face

And listen to his replies

And say - “It's been nice meeting you,

Good day” - and go our ways

On self important feet,

And never recognize

The opportunity we thought

We sought, and could have caught

if we had been aware;

If we had been more wise.

 

Dorothea Spears


 

                       CHANGE IS THE KEY

 Change is the key to immortality.

Is not life itself a succession of deaths,

A cycle of rebirths, a constancy
Of brief exhaling and inhaling breaths?

Our manifested world proclaims indeed
This fundamental truth : emerging life
Is mingled with emergent death from seed
To soul in constant metamorphic strife.

The earth to the magnetic sun replying.

Not one change, but a constant synthesis.
Not one death is required, but constant dying
In life’s eternal metamorphosis.

Think you we are immortal, you and I?

Only as we die . . . as we die.


                  CHANT OF THE WOODLANDS.

 Glistening water,

Glint of the sun :

Infinite pathos
Of day nearly done.

Fugitive perfume
Of woodland and dell,

Shadows a-lurking
Where fairies may dwell.

Come from the cities, ye men who still dream.

And watch with me here by the side of the stream !
The day’s on the wane and the city is grey
But still in the woodland there’s promise of May;
While yet ye have eyes that can see, come away !

The sounds of the city are jangled and drear.

But still in the woodlands the echoes call clear.

Oh, come then, while yet ye have ears that can hear—

Ripple of water,

Rustle of leaves ;

Calls from the bushes
Where Piet-My- Vrou grieves.

Chirping of crickets,

Sigh of the breeze :

 

Come from the cities, ye men who still dream.

And list with me here at the marge of the stream !
The song of the city is all out of tune
But still in the woodlands the turtle-doves croon.
While still ye have lips learned to sing, oh, come soon !

The city is crowded with hatred and pride,

But still in the woodlands the spaces are wide.
While yet ye have hearts that can love, come aside!

Twitter of pigeons

Seeking a mate :

Blossom and pollen
And kindness of Fate.

Peace and contentment.

Blue skies above—

God in the woodlands
Proclaiming His love.

Come from the cities, ye men who still dream,

And learn with me here at the marge of the stream !
The city is greedy, discordant, and grey.

But still in the woodlands there’s silence to pray.
While yet ye have souls that can feel, come away!


                                          Charity

I asked for a couple of roses

To garnish my table one night:

You gave me an armful of blossoms

That filled all the room with their light.

I asked for an hour’s communion

To garnish my heart for a day:

You gave me a heart full of friendship

That gladdens my life all the way.

 

Dorothea Graham Botha

The Epworth Press

                                    1925


                    Cheap

It is cheap valour that must win

Approval by disparaging another.

It is cheap victory that's won

By crude comparison,

Or holding up to ridicule

The weakness of a brother.

It is cheap wit

That makes a fool

Of a friend to win a laugh by it.

 

Dorothea Spears


      Chickens come home to roost

 Before we cross to the other side

(Or so they say . . . so they say)

All our chickens come home to bide,

(Alack-a-day! Alack-a-day!)

Come home to stay.

All our chickens from far and wide

In time and distance to betray,

Hatched in anger or love or pride,

Things forgotten and far away

And kept at bay.

Of course, of course they may have lied -

If all come home and start to lay

(And there will be no place to hide).

What will conscience have to pay?

Alack-a-day!

     

Dorothea Spears


    Child in the World and Child in the Womb

Child in the world and child in the womb

Slumber now… Too soon, too soon

The world will wake you. Flowers will bloom

And flowers will fade, morning and noon

And night: Oh, would that you could stay

Safe in my heart the livelong day:

Safe in my heart, child in the womb

And child in the world, while the flowers bloom.

Slumber now, innocent boy,

When you waken wake with joy.

Slumber now, child in the womb,

And child in the world, unaware of doom.

Child of matron and child of maid –

Too soon… too soon the flowers will fade.


         Children of Separation


The children of separation choose

This thing and that, of earth and sea and sky,

For which they think it is fit to fight and die,

Defend the element they choose to use

Unmindful of the heritage they lose

Who should be heir to all. “An erf!”

They cry,

To whom the world is willed! And life goes by

Perpetuating that which time should fuse,

We teach division, science and precision;

Would master life with force or rule-of-thumb;

Take individuation as our goal.

We fail and fail again who lack the vision

To recognise the answer in the sum;

To add the parts together and find a whole.

 

7.7.60

This is the 101st day of the State of Emergency in South Africa.


                          CHINCHERINCHEES.

For days the sky was sulky and the clouds were dripping
tears;

The mountains in a pall of gloom were bound.

And all of dreary Nature seemed enveloped in dark
fears

Lest Spring was lost to never more be found.

My heart was getting homesick, and my soul seemed
held by bars

Of dismal fog, and night brought no relief.

It wouldn’t be so hard, I thought, if I could see
the stars.

For always stars have strengthened my belief.

In all my endless wanderings, where’er I chanced to
roam,

When garish day brought longing, through the
night

The stars have kept me company when I have sighed
for home

—But now the stars were hidden from my sight.

And so my heart grew weary and my hope was on the
wane.

Discouragements were closing in a crowd

And all that I could see in life were leaden skies and
pain.

When just one smile of sun shone through the cloud.

I opened wide the window e’er the shaft of light
should pass.

And lo, the stars had fallen and were gleaming in the
grass!


                         Christmas

 Behind the symbol − truth. Could we but tear

Aside the veiling words and forms reveal

The truth the parables of life conceal

Assuredly the Christ would wait us there.

The living Christ: but we are weak to dare

To shatter the appearance, free the real

And we would rather like our fathers kneel

To images when we aspire to prayer

Shall we not seek within the Christmas story

The deeper meaning, rending old tradition

To win the secret of the second birth?

The manger and the cross, the rising glory

The plan of God attaining to fruition—

The Son of God within the sons of Earth

     

Dorothea Spears


          Christmas Is A Birthday

 

Christmas is a birthday. We remember

In December how a birth

Divided time into Before and After

Upon this little planet we call earth.

Christmas is Somebody’s birthday… yet,

Enveloped in the tinsel and the laughter,

The dancing and the crackers and the noise,

How often we forget

What Christmas means, and let

Its toys eclipse it wonders and its joys.

 

Airlie Close

Constantia C.P.


        Christmas Sonnet for Southerners

 The distance is no greater to the manger,

(There being in the spirit world no space).

The Star shines here to guide the questing stranger

As surely as in any holy place.

In southern skies the Star of Hope is gleaming

As in the North, and Wise Men follow swift

To find the goal of all their search and dreaming

And at the manger leave their hearts, a gift.

For every place is holy where Love enters,

And Christ is born wherever Love and need

Unite to build a stable where Light centres:

To such a dwelling Christmas comes indeed.

 

And strangely, in this loneliest spot on earth,

The human heart, the Christ-child comes to birth.


                     City Songster

 There is bird In the cage of me

That never ceases singing;

A captive, yet forever free,

Though tethered ever winging

Beneath the traffic noise of earth,

The clamour and The din

That deafens men and mutes the mirth

Is constant song within.

When raucous life becomes a fear

Too loud, too long to bear

Be silent. . . Listen . . Tune your ear . . .

The song,  the wing is there.

 

Dorothea Spears


         Civilizations never die suddenly


They say the Christians compassed Julian's death,

And his successors mortally wounded

The empire he so hardly won.

Short was the emperor's brief reprieve of breath

After the killing was done.

But Rome lingered on,

Dying piecemeal, here a finger, there

A hand. Did civilization understand?

And did the mass of the people even care,

So busily quibbling, selling, buying?

Or was the process so prolonged

They didn't even know that they were dying?

 

Dorothea Spears


Clouds

           Clouds …

           The angels are sewing the filmy shrouds

                           For the souls of the dead:

Winding sheets gossamer as the dew,

               For the timid soul that is born a-new

From the far world sped.

                          I should not care

              To fly when a storm is on its way

              And have a gown of black or grey

                        For my soul to wear.

                        With the break of morn

             I’ll take my flight, or when day is old,

             For I’d have a frock of red or gold

                       To my soul adorn.

                       Sometimes in crowds

          The souls go home, gazing high,

           It seems that the whole of the heavy sky

                      Is full of clouds …

                  And angels sewing the filmy shrouds

                     For the souls of the dead:

              Winding sheets gossamer as the dew

              For the timid souls that are born a-new

                  From the far world sped.


                      Coal is black

Coal is black

And gold is yellow

And diamonds are white

But gold can drive no ship nor train,

Nor diamonds give a city light.

Coal is black and dull

Diamonds and gold are bright:

But gold can set no furnaces a-glow

Nor diamonds warm a bitter night.

Coal is black. Take care …

The fire in coal may sleep

But it is there

to turn the wheels of industry

or spread destruction-

Coal is black

beware.


       Cocktail Conversation at Christmas

We spoke of many things in heaven and earth

And, since it was the festive season of the year,

Conceptions (physical and mental), births, and a birth,

And the relationship of love and hate and fear

And now and then and there and here.

“Have you ever thought,” he said,

"Who crowded the inns of Bethlehem that night?

Could you find room in this city for a bed

To cradle ineffable Love and Light?

Who crowded the inns of Bethlehem −

Cupidity, resentment. yes, and hate −

But mostly selfishness and pride.

Knock today on almost any gate

And find if there is room for unadulterated love inside.

Tomorrow is always conceived in yester­day

Our inns are overcrowded now and here in just that way.

 

Dorothea Spears.

       5.1.61


                        Colour

There are thoughts which lie too deep for words,

And griefs too hard to be dissolved by tears

Too bitter to be coated, like a pill,

With sugar for the swallowing, and fears

Too potent to be hidden by the will.

So we are silent. So we do not weep.

So we bury thought. But the heart knows

And is appalled, watching the doors close.

 

Dorothea Spears.

7.10.1967


                  Come Christmas Day

Come Christmas Day, and I can truly say

I wish no person ill – with heart at rest

Then I can make my sacrifice to God

And bid the Christ child be my welcome guest

Come Christmas Eve, or so I do believe,

And there be any hatred in my heart

My offering to God is unreceived

And, sorrowing, the Christ child must depart.


                     Come Gently, Winter 

Come slowly, Winter.

Give us time to prune the tree and cut the wood

And stack it tidily away

As wise men do,

And gather in the harvests that shall be our food,

And boughs of scarlet berries that shall keep our houses gay

The winter through.

Come gently. Winter.

As the winter now.

Leave the lovely leaves of gold

And red and brown and russet on the bough

A little while

Nor let the rude hand of the tempest tear

The trusting tree too suddenly,

Nor leave it shocked and shaken, stripped and bare,

But rather let the leaves drop one by one

As now

Into the Indian Summer air.

 

Dorothea Spears


                 Come Not Back, My Dear

Oh, come not back in Autumn. It was Spring

When you were here;

The world was all of gold, and you were King,

My dear…My dear…

 

Marsh marigolds and buttercups, and the sun –

All shining gold!

The year was very new, and we were young,

But now…’Tis old.

 

The leaves, like old love’s tears, have all been shed;

And Spring’s bright eyes

Are dim, and Summer’s passionate flowers dead,

And cold the skies.

 

Ah, yes, I know new Springs will deck the hills

But this is truth –

That Man, however subtly Spring distils,

Has but one youth.

Some come not back again.  Remember me

As through a haze

In all the dead Spring’s golden panoply…

And go your ways.

 

“Oaklands”

Newlands Ave


                 Comedian’s Soliloquy 

I’m not a bandolier no

Nor harlequin nor Pierrot,

Nor yet a wandering mistrial I

For open roads I do not sigh

I’m not a strolling vagabond

Nor do I pine for hills beyond

And you can very safely wager

I’m not a sergeant major!

 

Neither am I a bachelor gay

I do not travel the broad highway,

I do not sigh for eyes of blue

Or brown (or black!) or any hue

I’m not an admiral, oh dear no!

In fact at sea I stay below

And just because my hair is wavy

Don’t think I’m in the navy.

 

 

In fact I’m more of the funny things

About which every baritone sings

And tenors’ amorous desires

Leave all untouched my inner fires

A far, far harder role is mine –

In joy or sorrow, rain or shine

I’ve got to go on being funny

If I’m to get my money.

 

So laugh, all you people

For the joke that’s intended

Laugh though it hurts –

-      This song is ended.

(Spoken a la Pagliacci)


                Comment On Modern Art

The sudden little beauties that startle the heart!

The small perfections visioned unaware –

The petals of a red rose fallen apart

And lying velvet on a table bare

Against the richness of dark and polished board…

The gossamer skeleton of a leaf…the light

Reflected on white walls from colour stored

In gardens… planing pelicans in flight…

A naked branch against a Wintry moon…

The brittle golden rain of Autumn leaves…

The sheen upon the starling’s wing at noon…

The dew pearled fabric which the spider weaves-

When God dispenses Beauty as largesse

Must Man immortalize the ugliness?


               Common or Garden

It's true . . . No bloom

Of mine will win a prize

From judges horticulturally wise.

But when the weather's grey with gloom

And heaven looks at earth with misty eyes

I revel in the radiance of broom,

And generous sweetpeas grow here with ease.

I scatter their largesse with a thought

Knowing tomorrow will have brought

Renewed supplies

Of these so fragrant tethered butterflies.

My lawns are shabby, true, but puppies play

Unchided in the grass with eager eyes,

And, within reason,

There's something colourful for every season,

Not elegant, but gay .

Vines and fruit trees, willows, oaks; a stream,

A pool for swimming; singing bees;

And poplar trees that rise

To etch their gothic spires against the skies

And peace to dream . .


Dorothea Spears


          Common or garden sense

Everywhere in the world, and every day

We are committing murder in thought or fact:

Slowly, by the poison words we say,

Or swiftly by some sudden violent act.

Every moment of every day we sow

The seeds of love or anger or dissension

Which, carried round the world on winds that blow,

Mature to crops beyond our comprehension.

The air's so full of seeds or noxious weeds

Seeking crannies in the minds of men

To propagate their doubts and hates and greeds

That grow and fruit and seed and blow again

That it behoves each man to keep a hoe

At hand and daily cultivate his mind

And heart; and note what weeds and flowers grow

To multiply the species of their kind.

         

  Dorothea Spears


 

                       Communion 

This morning surely Heaven met with earth

To bear a day of beauty so profound

And God Himself presided at its birth:

The very peace of God is in the ground.

The vines are heavy and the trees have caught

The scent of autumn. Circling mountains press

Against serenity wherein no thought

Of winter stints the golden sun’s caress.

The turtle doves with low incessant praise

Accompany the silence that is deep

And satisfying as a prayer that lays

Old ghosts to rest and lulls old hurts to sleep.

Today I know with great humility

That I am part of God, and He of me.

 

Dorothea Spears


                    Compromise 

“I hope that it will be a girl,”

The mother said, and sighed.

“Oh, no, ‘twill be a son and heir,

Said father, in his pride.

But never knew – now wasn’t it funny?

Whether is would be “Lass” or “Sonnie”

 

The months went by. “We’ll call her Anne,”

The hopeful mother said.

While father pictured John a man

And of his firm, the head;

Till for their virtues (or their sins)

The matter was settled, and Nurse said –“Twins!”

 

 Newlands C.P.


                  Concatenation

(On the Violent Death of a President)

 

This repercussion is so vast

That it reverberates across the face

Of time and space,

And shakes the individual atom in its distant place.

The pattern of the past

Is shattered . . .  suddenly . . .

Before the swift concatenation of this blast

That shakes our unimpregnable foundations,

Breaks the brief composure of complacent nations

And calls the individual by name.

To-morrow, now, will never be the same:

Something is broken that will not be mended,

And with the violent setting of this sun a day is ended

That will not come again.

 

Dorothea Spears

26.11.1963


                           Concert

The hall is packed, The players take their places.

The chattering subsides. A silence falls

Across the shimmering sea of upturned faces

Surrounded by a shore of listening walls,

The baton lifts. The flute, the fiddle calls.

The harpsichord. . .  Or one piano sings

Alone upon the stage. . .  and we have wings

Who once were wont to walk. And time stands still.

We clap our hands and cry "Encore! Encore!”

And loudly praise who wrote or played the score,

But do we ever laud the craftsman's skill,

That made the instrument to work their will?

Yet, who could play the music of a Mozart

Without the magic of the craftsman's band

That shaped the wood, the strings, the singing wires,

Without the mind that has designed and planned

To give a voice to Beethoven's desires

Or bring a Bach or Brahms at our command?

O friend, do not despise the mute unsung

Who build for beauty body and a tongue.

 

 Dorothea Spears


                      Confrontation

When the self a man sees in the mirror of his mind

Comes face to face with the self that other men find

Behind the familiar facade of eyes and nose

And mouth and brain he shows wherever he goes.

These images that have travelled hand in hand

Unknowingly - when they meet will they understand,

If they meet, and will they recognize

Each other, after the first shock of surprise?

                     

Dorothea Spears


        Conservation to progress                                               

Our basic difference is here -

That I can pause and say to time “Stand still

The while I savour this . . . and this . . .

And this.” And time stands still.

But you must always push and prod

And shout ‘Get on . . . get on . . . get on!”

I know the work of the world would never get done

By people like me. But people like you

Will never really get to know the sun

That fathered this world without your aid

And made it beautiful.

Is there not a place, my friend,

For both of us in this vast space

With all the sky above it -

You to work the world

And I to love it?

 

Dorothea Spears


                     Constantia

Watching the rape of the valley, I am glad

I had the joy of knowing her

When all her vines were growing.

You, who come to-morrow, will not guess

How fair she was, how peaceful, how serene

Before the city's passionate caress

Begat the suburb that will dispossess

The beauty that has been.

 

Dorothea Spears


               Constantia Night

Fling the doors and windows wide

And bid this night to come inside;

Treading the world with silent feet

As soft as sorrow and more fleet,

Carrying her gift of peace.

Press the button and release

The prisoned light that bars her way

And apes the restless mood of day.

What is the perfume she distils?

The scent of the valley and the hills,

Of laden vines and blending all,

The joy of the harvest and of Fall.

Now the sun-reflecting moon

Has turned her head to grant this boon –

The velvet jewel-starred delight

Of this incomparable night.

Open the doors and windows wide

And bid this beauty come inside!

 

22.3.55   - Veritas, Constantia CP


          Constantia swan song

When I go over the new road

At morning or night or noon

I hear the swan singing

And know that it will be soon.

And the sadness and the gladness

Of the beauty that must die

Is bitter-sweet and haunting

To the heart passing by.

Is bitter-sweet and haunting

As the swan's last flight

When I go over the new road

At morning or noon or night

 

Dorothea Spears

2.4.1968


                       Content

Next year, or the year thereafter,

Or the year after that – what matter?

Other laughter will ripple over the grass

I pass with loving feet.

Other chatter will ripple through the trees

And other flowers than these that I have loved,

Perhaps their progenies, will lift new faces

Full of happiness, inviting the caress

Of other eyes than mine

To bless and possess.

Other lips than mine will sing the praises

Of trodden paths that point to unexpected places,

Of pillared roses peering in the pool;

The wall of weeping mulberry, genuflecting to

The towering cactus, hiding in the cool

And secret garden that the ancient oak

Wraps like a jealous lover in his gallant cloak;

Of flowering shrubs who take their turn

Through singing seasons, summer, winter, spring,

To splash the sky with colour; of copper prunes to burn

Against the greys and greens that fling

Their challenge to the serried flowers filling

The eager nights and days

With colour and perfume, spilling and lifting

And drifting like incense through the garden ways.

Next year, or the year thereafter,

Or the year after that – what matter?

Other laughter will ripple over the grass…

It is enough for me that I have loved

And loitered, and laboured well to bring

This beauty into being, that I shall always be

A part of it, as those who loved before,

As it will always be a part of me

Only avarice could ask for more.

 

Airlie Close, Constantia, C.P.


          Cornus Norman Hadden

My first love-affair with a tree –

Cornus Norman Hadden,

An unlikely name

For that close -packed mass of flowers

Flat-growing, open to the sun

On delicate slender branches

Whose pale green frills are

Layered like Victorian petticoats;

 

First seen in June

Bridal whiteness only faintly flushed –

I wanted to touch,

To stroke the petals

And lay my face on their smooth cushions,

But I just stood there

Open-mouthed and stupid

In my adoration.

 

 

By mid-July

Petals less thickly spaced,

More fully flushed,

Dropped as I watched

Making no sound, but each one

Dry and brown-veined

Soon as it touched the ground.

 

I scooped them in my hands

And tried to weep

For such short-lived perfection,

But I just knelt there

Dry-mouthed and stupid

In my grief.


                Could I imprison

Could I imprison the perfume of the living rose

In a cage of words, I’d shape you a golden key.

If I could pour out words richly, as wine flows,

Liquid and rich, and red as Burgundy,

I’d pour out the passion of my heart in crimson words for thee.

 

If I could capture the fragrance to keep when the rose is dead

I’d put it in a bowl of words to stand beside your bed.

And, waking in the night, the fragrance of my words would float

About you, and run like nectar down your lovely throat.


                      Covenant

The Day of Covenant, of dedication…

It is good that sometimes we should pause,

As individuals and as a nation,

To check our code by the eternal laws.

 

Let us be still –

Insistent heart and clamorous mind

And wayward will –

In the resultant silence we may find

The living Light

To quench the little fires

That have misled us through the night

With their importunate desires;

The living Word,

The wisdom lost behind

Our Babel, waiting to be heard.

 

Individually and as a nation –

To God the Spirit and to Christ the Soul

And Man the Creature: to the Triune

Whole –

Let us make this day our dedication,

Nor be content with any meaner goal.


Covered Wagons  (From PIONEERS)

Turbulent spirits brooking no denial,

Willing to wager the years God held in His Hand,

To drain at a draught Life's unpolluted phial

For the dream of a Dream, the hope of a Promised Land:

Untamed spirits, ready to shy at the touch

Of an alien hand, impatient of control;

Veering between too little and too much;

Seeking forever the unattainable goal:

The Covered Wagon is only an episode

In the immortal saga of Mankind,

The tale of the men who perish to build the road,

The song of the men who seek, nor ever find.

These are the spirits that open the doors of the world,

That brave the paths the chosen few have trod;

That dare the fate of Lucifer, hellward hurled,

To wrest the secrets out of the Mind of God.

From a Balcony in Johannesburg

Scarce twilight yet . . . The stormy sky

It is that fills the street with this strange light

In which the twinkling globes unclose and vie

With muted signs against encroaching night

Like flowers opening unsuspecting eyes

To brief unseasonable suns to shine

Against the garden with a naive surprise,

A dust of gold against a dull design

And then the rain . . .  and mirrors everywhere

Transforming and  reflecting!  And the drums

Of thunder Quivering through the startled air!

In such a burst of splendour beauty comes,

Announced by lightning, terrifying, bright −

And Twist Street sings, and I, to see this sight!

 

Dorothea Spears.


                      Criticism

This cold wind blows forever.

There are sheltered flowers, I think, that never

Feel this freezing breath,

And some are blown to strive and thrive

Against the blast . . . For others it is death

And many an aspiring flower

Is marred and marked and blighted by this heedless needless power.

It is a colour that permeates

The purity of unadulterated colour, stains

All air with earth, mates

All fire with water, blends all balms with banes.

It is a discordant note,

Insistent and incessant,

Inhibiting the harmony within creation's throat.

It is a repetitive vibration,

Unyielding, unquiescent,

That  shakes  all  sensitivity  to its foundation.

 

Dorothea Spears


           Cross Roads at Jericho

Jesus standing at the crossroads

Of Jericho

Deciding forever

Which road to go:

North to Galilee

And home to friends 

And the beloved sea:

South – to the gate

Of Jerusalem

Where the priests wait.

Now he knows is forever.

Having made the decision

And knowing well

Where it will lead

He tries to tell the twelve

But they will not heed.

And the two, the best beloved.

Proffer their request

For seats of honour…

And the sun sinks red in the west.

 

Airlie Close 


                    Crying Heart

My heart has been crying all day long

       And all night through:

I have tried to comfort it with a song,

       But it wants you.

I have pleaded, and coaxed, and soothed in vain

For only you can still its pain.

 

My heart is crying, and will not rest,

       Will not be still.

I have cradled and rocked it in my breast

As mothers will,

But it will not listen, however I try

For only you can still its cry.

 

And you, who left it crying there,

Go blithely on – you do  not care.


                Cut Through Time

Cut through time at any given moment.

Analyse the substance as you-find it,

Chalk or cheese, and the unknown cause behind it,

Yesterday, tomorrow, now - what have you?

What can we say of time and Who designed it,

And are the elements that blend and blind and bind it

Different yesterday, to-morrow, now, and then?

Cut through time at any given moment -

Does it matter how or why or when?

Is all time existent always as a patterning in space,

That all inclusive entity within whose vast embrace

Everything that is takes place,

Or has been, or that will be. Is the tense

Indicative alone of where an unreality impinges on a parity of sense,

Or breaks the surface of the consciousness?

 

Dorothea Spears


                        Cycles

The secret of the cycles… If man knew

The secret of the cycles, of the tide,

Of ebb and flow – what miracles he could do,

What energies he could saddle, tame and ride!

There is a time of ebb and a time of flow

Unalterable as the night and day.

There is a time to come and a time to go,

A time for movement and a time for stay

The rise and fall of the blood, the path of the moon,

The hidden cycles of man and God and earth

And universe revolving late or soon,

The turning wheel and life and death and birth –

To find and fit your cycle is to cease

From fruitless friction, is to be a peace.

 

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 





 

 

 

 

 

 



 


 

 











 



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