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Libertas01                 S.A. at Uno

Come now, satiric Muses, here’s a thing

To set your sweet sardonic wits a-sing –

Come, tune for me your most abrasive string!

When growls the Bear at Who-Would-Cross-His-Path,

We tear our hair and writhe in righteous wrath

And cry “A will to eat the world he hath!”

In London, Paris and New York we talk

(God, how we talk) with fellow nations stalk

His footsteps, this ambitious Brute to balk.

“No Power,” we cry, (especially one so strong)

Has moral right to act against the throng

Defying World Majority. It’s wrong.”

But when the world treads on our favourite corn

We blow a very different sounding horn –

Majorities are mad when Us they scorn!

Though all the world may see a different light

They’re wrong, because (and this should indict)

We are so very sure that we are right.

What chance is here of peace, when every man

Co-operates to get what gain he can

And quits when things go counter to his plan?

 

“Oaklands”  Newlands Avenue


            Said Heart

What is this – in love again?

Fie, of fie upon you, heart!

Why, you scarce have healed the pain

From the last well-feathered dart.

Will you never learn your way with

Cupid, that he’s rash to play with?

Foolish heart, to look for sorrow,

Love is fickle, come away.

Heart made answer That’s tomorrow.

This, said heart, this is today!


Sanctuary

For me the truest worship needs no other church than this,

Where Table Mountain lifts her head for Heaven’s tender kiss.

Up here above the stress of life, and all its aching grief

A soul may hold communion with its God and find relief.

To view the things that He has made unmarred by man’s rude hand,

It makes blind eyes to vision, and dull hearts to understand!

This rarer atmosphere effaces all the small, the mean;

Men learn to know right values up here where the world is clean.

The soul has room to stretch its wings up here.      Or seeking rest,

I know no place where it can shelter closer to God’s breast.


               Sanctuary

Love is not a fort, to be defended

Against all comers to the weary end;

Nor flawed material that must be mended

Constantly lest faulty fibres rend.

Love is a mountain to be climbed, indeed,

Not fearfully but confidently; higher

Than the summit of a dream, or need

Of reassurance; higher than desire.

Love should be a sanctuary where

The heart however bunted can be sure

To find certain refuge from despair,

A shelter where the mind can be secure.

Man today so needs to find release

From life’s pursuers, in a place of peace.


                      Sanity

Are you not joyful when a fellow mortal

Ascends some pinnacle beyond the reach

Of ordinary men; unlocks some portal

Hitherto fast-barred and through the breach

Reveals new vistas opening to man

Celestial and terrene; or. brings to birth

Some haunting beauty. some − Immortal plan-

Are you not joyful for our common earth?

When we can sip the nectar of the sky −

And if men call it you or I or he

That fills the cup. what matter? You and I

And he are an inseparable we . .

Are one within that vast and ultimate sanity,

The knowledge of the oneness of humanity

 

Dorothea Spears.

      20/3/58


                  Santa Claus was True

In seeking the truth we lose the true

(Our love of reason often costs us dear)

The true that lies too deep for words, the clue

Behind the symbol, that the heart can hear.

In our mundane impatience we discard

The fairy tale because our hearts are blind.

Because we find interpretation hard

We lose the living truth that lies behind.

Geometry accepts an x and y

But man must clothe his faith in factual word

And fit belief in rigid formulae

That can be proved and seen and touched and heard.

And Christmas catches us with empty hands

Because it is the heart that understands.

 

21 -12 -1959


              Say It With Flowers

They speak with fragrant eloquence

  Uncaptured yet by poet’s tongue,

Appealing to a deeper sense

  Than any bard has ever sung.

 

Oh blind! Oh wayward, not to see

  In gardens fair or woodland bowers

The messages that wait for thee

  Where God is “saying it with flowers!”


                  Scars

Too often have his words incised

Her heart with their sharp bitterness

Since first she felt, benumbed, surprised,

Their cruel edge. He did not guess

That words could cut so deep, so deep -

And leave such ugly scars to keep.

     

Dorothea Spears


                      Science

This is the genie we ourselves have conjured.

We ourselves have rubbed the lamp, evoked

The slave of the lamp with unholy incantations

We cannot revoke.

We have rejected the masters of the magic

Who alone were skilled in the magical lore

That could inspan once more the unspent power

That bids us hurry faster…faster…faster…

Till the genie we summoned to serve us becomes our master.

 


Airlie Close

Constantia, C.P.


         Sea and River

        (The Wilderness)

I, for one, am not devotee

Of rolling surf and surging sea:

For here no rest is, day or night;

Only a hopeless, infinite

Expense of power, that evermore

Breaks fruitlessly upon the shore.

 

Beyond the dune the river flows

Peacefully, and the banks disclose

Fresh beauties at each turn.

Each small wave brings a mute caress

To where the trees, in emerald dress,

Their pretty selves discern

Within the mirrored surface till

The waves grow tired of keeping still

And break the image: then

The vain trees toss their lovely heads;

The reeds sway lightly in their beds:

The river laughs again.

 

And sometimes, when the sun has set,

The amethystine lights forget

To follow him, and as he dies

Incarnadine the watching skies:

And Nature holds her startled breath

To witness such a glorious death!


                   Sea Sirens

The arms of a wave are beckoning, beckoning me -

Shall I yield to them? They look so soft, so strong,

And I tire of standing alone the whole day long:

The arms of the waves are beckoning hungrily.

The earth is a laggard lover, the sea

Is bold and dashing, wooing with a song

Of pearls and coral and the gems that throng

His palaces, where I shall mistress be.

 

He is so great a lover, who could stand

Against his pleading? Ah, not I, not I.

Old earth no longer loves me: he is dumb.

I will not stay with the old hard hearted land:

I bid farewell to the sun, the wind, the sky –

Stretch out your arms, oh Sea -I come! I come!


                Sea Soliloquy

I wilt sit at the feet of the Old Man of the Sea

And say to him "Old Man, what have you to say to me?"

I will sit and listen silently the while he speaks

Of that which is unknowable. which each man seeks

And no man finds

In mortal words or mortal minds,

Being uncognizant of that unfathomable tongue

That whispers secrets of creation since the world was young

And  waves  of  civilization  beat  in thundering surf

Against the deaf ears of the rock, against the yielding roots of turf

Against the eddying wash of swift unstable sand

Carried seaward by the backwash from the land.

Sometimes where silent water shelters deep

In transient tranquil moments there the Old Man seems to sleep.

Deceptive moment . .   prologue of the storm

That builds an ever vaster wave to ever vaster form!

From trough to crest it rears the mountain of its height

Embodying a richer colour. deeper song and clearer light

Until eventually − always this is true −

The form explodes in flying spray to build itself anew.

I said "Old Man, what are you trying to say to me?"

And he replied, "What has always been must always be."

 

Dorothea Spears


           Season Encircles Season

Summer is but the memory of Autumn

And Winter is the memory of Spring

As yesterday's your memory and mine,

And what the seasons bring

Is as tomorrow, as a dream's design.

Each season from each season needs must borrow:

Invisible Time is an indivisible thing.

Today comes out of yesterday and merges in tomorrow,

A migrant, homing wing. −

 

Dorothea Spears


           Secret of Autumn

Once again this tautening of tension,

This beautiful troubling season of tran­sition

Old death preparing for the new ascension,

The sequel of fulfillment and fruition.

The glowing vineyard and the passionate berry

Frame in flame their questions and replies;

Breathtakingly, vociferously merry,

Bedecked for their recurring sacrifice.

The clouds betray the tension in the skies,

Tumultuous  beauty  forming.  fading. fleeing;

And small  leaves  dance  to  death, impatient, wise −

Strange joy possesses all my shaken being

To sense the secret shared by everything

That Autumn is a guarantee of Spring.

 

Dorothea Spears


             Seeing in Part

This is the tragedy that men discern

A facet of the truth and, overbold,

Assume that God has given them to hold

The flawless jewel. Thenceforth they will spurn

All others' views as spurious, nor turn

The subtle gem until its rays enfold

A world of beauty in an age of gold.

Well, men must suffer if they will not learn.

 

No mortal has beheld the truth complete.

The Wise Ones recognize their limitations,

Nor seek to break a brother's begging-bowl.

Small men, illusioned, with well-meant conceit

Would force their facet on all men and nations −

And blind us to the iridescent whole.

     

Dorothea Spears


                Self-Deception

Beware, my heart, the faults we fear to face

Within ourselves we tend to seek and find

In others, and upon their shoulders place

The cloak designed and woven in our mind.

Attack is a defence to hide behind.

Fitting the cloak we are ashamed to wear

On other shoulders helps to keep us blind

And comfortable. O cowardly heart, take care!

 

Airlie Close

Constantia C.P.


             September Day

The goblet of this day’s a shining thing

Of silver wrought, and with meticulous care

All patterned with the spirit of the Spring

With intricate tracery of lately bare

And interlacing branches burgeoning

In delicate designs, and here and there

The butterflies of blossom poised on wing

Of gossamer chasing, exquisitely fair.

I hold it in my hand and drink the light

While Nature pauses, silent and afraid

To let it go, because she knows Night

Will tarnish this perfection she has made.

And in the background, deep engraved and high,

The bold line of the mountain cuts the sky.


             September in Constantia

This beauty

This inimitable and inevitable now and here!

There are so many windows in this house. and yet

In every window beauty, now and far and near −

Dear God, don't ever let my heart forget

(Should I grow sad or old)

The scenes in which these swift uncertain days are set.

But let my memory hold

Forever hillsides rich with purple and with gold −

And at the bottom of the hill

The Jersey cows against the meadow's green,

That browse beneath the willows delicately venturing

With verdure into Spring

Beside the stream that's marged with lilies' snowy gleam,

And young oak's sheen . . .

And groups of ghostly Gothic poplars, wintered still;

Tall hakea hedges. scarlet tipped,

The lovely eucalyptus with the white bones showing through,

The pines against the mountain, darkly blue.

And sweetpeas coral lipped . . .

And hosts of dappled clouds serene and high

Against a mackerel sky

Dear God, Your cup of beauty must be filled this year

That it has spilled so liberally here!

Dorothea. Spears.


             Seven Weeks Poort

Why should we not abide here, you and I?

Quietly…quietly…letting the world go by.

A field to till for food, a limpid stream

To quench our thirst; mountains for aspiration

And quiet drowsing hours for meditation.

Trees for shade and beauty … time to dream…

Some books to feed the mind on – luscious words

And time to savour them: for music – birds

And singing brook, the wind against the trees –

What need have we for anything but these?

I ask myself…why should we fret and strive

And skimp our souls that flesh may richly thrive?

Why can we not abide here, you and I…

Quietly… quietly…while the world goes by?


                 Shades of Olympus

The ancient rites of ritual sacrifice

Have been debunked. We know the gods

are dead

that blessed the harvest feast and marriage

bed …

Yet Neptune still man’s skill can turn to

cries.

Mythology’s a tale of broken lies…

Endymion’s no more by Diana led…

(He worships money and success instead)

But Mars can still command the earthly

Skies.

Old Cronus does not sleep, whose iron sway

Enforced by multitudes of hireling clocks

Makes all men slaves and in increasing

Flocks

Dictates their lives of love and work and play.

Old Saturn stands invisible and mocks

The mortal mummery of night and day.

Aye…sometimes all the ancient gods arise

And take the arrogant mortals by surprise.


               Shall I Refrain?

Shall I refrain from dancing now the earth

Poises perilously, jittery and worn

Before the opening crevasse?

Shall I refrain from birth

Until the present perils pass

Because Death waits for me to be born?

 

Shall I refrain from singing now the tune is torn

Asunder by the thunder of the bombs?

It’s time for the clock to stop when we have lost

The sense of wonder.

Perhaps the spirit will dance across the cataclysm.

Perhaps the newly-born will outlive death

And find new catechisms

Strong enough to bridge the yawning schisms

When bombs are out of breath.

 

Veritas

Constantia, C.P.


           Short-Cut by Cableway

Uncaged upon the height

Something that lay dormant leaps to life

And laughter spreads its unaccustomed wings

And lifts and sings.

Now and here

I walk unwearied on the cushioned air

And what’s before and after has no care

Nor fret nor fear.

It has befallen you upon some English hill

Where violets are wild and white.

And some yellow too,

To start a lark to rising close beside

Your earthbound feet, when all the world is still.

Except for that brief rapture reaching for the blue

And vanishing from sight

Against the light?

Upon the mountain top my heart’s that bird

That soars and sings. But only I have heard.

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       Should Head or Heart Speak the Part?

Shall I sing of little things . . .

Shall I tell

Of vibrant wings.  Of buds that swell

To burst in such a blaze of white

As fills the days

With prismed light, the flowering peach

Beside the door, where eyes

Can reach its loveliness at morning-rise?

. . . This turf I tread

Patterned with mulberry black and red

Against the green sheen of the grass,

And overhead

Heavy with leaf, the boughs have made.

An overhanging bower of shade

Unwind the spell

Of Spring's perpetual surprise

Unbinding winter-blinded eyes

How well we know

The ancient story

Told by Spring in a gust of glory!

Shall I repeat it?

Shall I sing

Again the ineffable beauty of spring?

. . . Or try to write the thought I find

Crying for light

Behind the mind?

 

Dorothea Spears


             Should I Know?

I wonder, should I know Thee, Lord,

       If Thou shouldst come today,

And sit beside my humble board,

       And tread the common way.

 

If Thou shouldst come in human guise

       As once Thou camest before –

Oh, should I love Thee, or despise?

       Rebuke Thee, or adore?

 

If Thou shouldst come – how should I know

       My Lord, that it was Thee?

Good men two thousand year ago

        Were still at Calvary.

 

While for Thy coming I must pray

       I tremble, Lord, lest I

Shouldst meet Thee in the common way

       Unknowing, and pass by.


 

        Should I Lose Faith In You

Should I lose faith in you, my friend,

Where faith is deepest set,

The wound would never, never mend.

Nor death itself forget.

Should I lose faith in you, my friend,

My faith in all would go;

And faithless live till life should end-

If faith deceive me so.

Should I lose my faith in you, my friend,

My whole world would collapse,

And lost be all faith earth could lend,

And faith in Heaven perhaps.

 

Dorothea Graham Botha

The Epworth Press

1925


             Silver Day   

(The Cape - Early September)

The goblet of this day’s a shining thing

Or silver wrought, and with meticulous care

All patterned with the spirit of the Spring,

With intricate tracery of lately bare

And interlacing branches burgeoning

In delicate designs, and here and there

The butterflies of blossom poise on wing

Of gossamer chasing, exquisitely fair.

I hold it in my hand and drink the light

While Nature pauses, silent and afraid

To let go, because she knows that Night

Will tarnish this perfection she has made.

 

And in the background, deep engraved and high,

The bold line of the mountain cuts the sky.


Simplicity

I penned a many stanza’d rhyme

To prove my great fidelity.

Unsatisfied, I watched it burn,

And turned again all wearily.

Then happy inspiration came:

In just these simple words I send

The whole of my great constancy

And faith -dear friend, you are my friend!

 

Dorothea Graham Botha

The Epworth Press

1925


                   Simplicity

See, I am quiet now

As the bole of a lofty tree.

Quivers each budding bough,

But still is the heart of me.

 

Sap flows steady and strong

To each uttermost finger twig:

Be winter never so long

The faith of me is big.

 

Little is it to ask

Of man’s fertility

To grow in his daily task

As simply as a tree;

 

Drinking the milk of the earth,

Breathing the day, the night,

Bringing beauty to birth;

Seeking - and finding – the Light.


            Since Nancy Went

To me the morn brings no sunshine.

    The skies go veiled in grey,

And life holds only shadow-

     Since Nancy went away.

 

 

The flowers of joy have faded;

    The birds have taken flight.

With Nancy went the sunshine –

    With me remains the night:

 

The night; and no stars brighten

     The darkness of my way.

I’ve lost the road to Heave,

        

                  SING, OH HEART!

Sing, Oh Heart, of Love and the Spring,

Of magic and miracle. Sing ! Oh, sing !

For love is born in a breast forlorn,

As a flower that wakes in the jewelled morn !

My heart was bare as the bleak brown earth,

But Spring and Love have bathed both in mirth !
And bloom blows rife after Winter’s strife—
Oh, the Spring has given the world new life !

Then, carol, Heart, like the birds above,

Of magic and miracle, Spring and Love!

As a floweret born in the jewelled morn,

So Love has bloomed in a breast forlorn !


            Singing I Went

Singing I went when the sun was high

And vagabond clouds went scudding by;

Singing I went through the April day

For the beauty that flowered along my way.

 

Singing I come when the sun is low

Though the song be soft and the steps be slow.

Singing I come through a mist of tears

For beauty still flowers a-down the years.

 

And when the sun goes sinking fast

And darkness claims its own at last

Hiding each beautiful well-loved sight –

May I go singing into the night.


                  Sister Aiden

Weep not for her: she has no need of tears.

Is she not greatly privileged to share

The high task of redemption, and to wear

The cross her Master wore till he appears?

But weep for them who from their hates and fears

And from the bitter wood of their despair

Have hewn a cross for her, which they must bear

In pain across the unforgiving years.

 

Aye, weep for them as she would weep for them,

And those who pass by with averted eyes

But cannot shun their share of burden thus.

From such deep roots does the crucifixion stem –

We cry “Barabbas!” and the saviour dies.

Weep for us, my brother, weep for us!

 

“Veritas”

Constantia, C.P.


              Sisterhood

I met a maid with such a shining face

That I was fane to follow her and find

The way she went to that enchanted place

In which she dwelt, contentment or the mind.

She bore a pitcher of water. As she went

The thirst held their cups for her to fill:

Above each suppliant with love she leant,

And there was water in the pitcher still.

“Sister, Sister…May I come with you

To find fulfilment for the heart?” I said.

She handed me a pitcher, and I knew

And knew the path of service I must tread.

 

She smiled at me. I took her outstretched hand,

To love, to serve, to share…to understand.


            Sleep, The Divider

I am afraid of Sleep.

He carries you so far away from me.

This fragile hold I keep

Is loosed by Slumber and your spirit, free

Wanders at will through doors to which I hold

no key.

 

I have seen you smile

When Sleep has come to claim his darkened hour

And make you his the while –

So, if a rose has spirit, would the flower smile,

When the Queen of Beauty paused to choose

It for her bower.

 

And while you sleep I gaze

On your fair body lying here so still,

And wonder what strange ways

Your spirit feet are dancing, on what hill

Of Faery, where fragrances of earth in balm distill.

Sometimes when I awake

Suddenly, as feeling something near,

At unaccountable ache

Catches my heart, imagining I hear

Strange echoes sweet that fill my breast with

a foreboding fear.

Is it that goat-foot god

That lures you from me to the enchanted glade

-With Mercury’s sandals shod,

In the guise of Sleep – to dance in the hawthorn shade

To the tune of his cursed pipes, and their witching serenade?

 

Once I woke you, just

To bring you back to me from that strange land;

And in your eyes the dust

Of far dreams clung. Sleep caught your eager hand

And coaxed you back again to realms I cannot understand.

 

 

Is it because I know

I hold you by so frail a bond that I

am loth to let you go

With soft voiced Sleep? That he, perchance, will try

To win you from me, you who are so fair and so earth-shy?

And oh, I am afraid

That sometime you will wander off too far;

That you will be waylaid

And Sleep will never more is door unbar

Or let you come to me again from that so-distant star!


                  Sleep

Out of the murky fastnesses of sleep

The I I know up-struggles to the light,

Sottish with slumber, from the stygian keep

Where Morpheus held me prisoner through the night.

In what vile servitude have I been thrilled

These long mysterious hours, at Morpheus’ hest,

Ere unremembering spirit is recalled

To this clay fane where I am lord – or guest?

Night after night the unknown overpowers

This self I know. I sink without a cry

Into oblivion, un-selfed for hours.

What gross indignity is this, that I

Should be reduced to an insensate clod

Of will-less clay, who waking am a god!


“Oaklands”

Newlands Ave,  Newlands, C.P


           Sleep’s Servitude

Out of the murky fastnesses of sleep

The I I know up-struggles to the light,

Sottish with slumber, from the stygian keep

Where Morpheus held me prisoned through the night.

In what vile servitude have I been thrilled

These long mysterious hours, at Morpheus’ hest,

Ere unremembering spirit is recalled

To this clay fane where I am lord – or guest?

 

Night after night the unknown overpowers

This self I know. I sink without a cry

Into oblivion, unselfed for hours.

What gross indignity is this, that I

Should be reduced to an insensate clod

Of will-less clay, who waking am a god?

           

                  Sliver Moon

Silver moon, silver moon

Sailing to the West,

I would crave of thee a boon;

Thou wilt see my dear love soon-

Smile upon her rest.

Smile softly on her rest,

And leave a dream of me to linger

In her breast.


                Snow

Floating from heaven, in gentle cluster white,

Each flake descends to sleep upon the breast

Of Mother Earth, as black as blackest night,

Until a snowy carpet, soft doth rest.

 

Downwards it glides, till ne’er a spot remains

Uncovered. Smoky buildings are transformed

To glistening palaces, and man’s dark stains

Are screened, and King murk’s citadel is stormed.

 

And peace comes with that carpeting of white,

And men walk silent through the City square –

For God’s hand laid it swiftly in the night,

To veil the evil which is rooted there.


      So Many Guises Beauty Wears

I have seen Beauty riding in majesty

  Over the hills at sunset and at dawn;

Have caught her idling in captivity

 Through ordered gardens, over velvet lawn;

Have paused to watch her rioting recklessly

  When Autumn tints the mountain side adorn;

In foaming rivers tumbling breathlessly –

  So many exquisite guises has she worn!

Alluring, dazzling, captivating, quaint –

  And who shall say when she is loveliest,

In wild abandon or in proud restraint?

Not I…I only know I love her best

Where daffodils in mingled sun and shade

Stand nodding in a tranquil English glade.


          So You Are Gone

So you are gone.

I did not weep to see you go,

For then I did not even know

That I should miss you so.

My life goes on.

The same old trifles fill the day;

The bright sun shines across my way,

And all the flowers are gay.

There is not one

Unhappy cloud to fret the blue

Of heaven’s content, where songbirds woo,

And earth is singing too.

But there is none

To ease the emptiness of all:

You do not answer when I call;

And spring is turned to fall.


Dorothea Graham Botha

The Epworth Press

1925


                Socialist Sonnets

                     I – The Toilers

My heart is heavy with the hopeless ache

Of those who toil and toil with little gain…

From dawn till dusk, from dawn till dusk, in vain

Desiring respite: multitudes that make

For all their striving but enough to slake

The day’s thirst, to prolong the unasked pain

Of living, wearing heart and flesh and brain

In hopeless servitude until they break;

Day in, day out, for just enough to keep

The wolf at bay – and if they’re out of luck

Not even that. How can they hope to pluck

The flowers of life, who sow what others reap?

 

Is this, you think, the plan God had in sight

For man when He had finished, that Sixth Night?

 

                     

 

     II The Office Workers

See, there he sits upon an office stool,

Selling his soul for eight hours every day;

Selling his brains to who has gold to pay,

(For he must live) a mute, inglorious tool

To forge a fortune for a wealthier fool:

And when his brains are blunted, cast away

Upon life’s rubbish heap as useless clay,

His youthful dreams all forfeit. That’s life’s rule.

But now he dreams high dreams, and little knows

They are the price that they must pay who sell

Their poetry to write another’s prose,

Their fullness to replete another’s well.

Unlaureled, empty at last he goes

To his long sleep among the asphodel.

 

 

 

 

 

 

                      III Contrast

 

Behind the door I heard a woman’s tears

And paused irresolute, with hand on bell,

Embarrassed by convention’s unusual fears

Of nude emotion in a heart unwell.

I rang then… Powder could not hide the trace

Of hours of weeping. “What is it?” I said

Gently. Anguish crumpled her face.

“It’s just – I’m frightened – and we have no bread…

Jim out of work so long … the doctor’s bill –

And now his firm has changed to monthly pay

Instead of weekly! But how to live until

Month’s end?” …I did not know. But yesterday

I met one woman from her hoard could choose

Four hundred frocks, two hundred pairs of shoes.


              Some are Born . . .

Some are born to walk with clowns or kings

And some to soar aloft on strong wings;

And some to seek and love all beautiful things:

The flower hidden, like a fallen star,

In grass men pass, seeking the great and the far,

Missing forever the beauty of things that are . . .

Who deem it sad that such a beautiful day

As this should dawn and die with none to say

“How beautiful!” before it turns away

Some are born to walk with clowns, or kings,

And some to seek the sun on strong wings...

And some to look, and love all beautiful things.

 

Dorothea Spears


Sometimes When I’m Alone

Sometimes when I’m alone I love to think

Of days and friends that long since have passed by;

Of hours I’ve spent in labour or in play,

E’en though remembrance brings along a sigh.

A sigh lamenting that these hours agone

Can never more be ours again to spend

As we have spent; yet more regrets

So near forgetting one we called a friend.

 

Dorothea Graham Botha

The Epworth Press

                                                         1925


                            Somewhere between

Somewhere between the two extremes lies the mean;

Somewhere between the valley's depth and the mountain’s height

A level site where ordinary men can stay;

Between the roots and the fruits the beauty of the flowers.

Between the tick and the tock of the pendulum of the clock

Time moves the fingers of the minutes and the hours.

Between tomorrow (that never comes) and yesterday

Today is, always, and it will always be today.

 

Dorothea Spears


                  Song for Music

Come when the vineyard is vital with blossom

Come when the Spring is alive with the dew;

Rising the sap to accede to the Summer

Ere it has tasted the wine that is new.

Then I shall dance to your piping, Beloved,

Dance to the tune in my heart of the lark

Springing unbidden from earth into heaven

Into the sunlight that succours the dark . . .

. . The sunlight that succours the dark.

 

Now it is Autumn, is Autumn, Beloved.

Harvests are gathered. no corn is to reap.

Flowering and fruiting are finished, and Winter

Beckons the vines to the valley of sleep.

Chaff me not, chide me not, oh my Beloved.

Restlessness rests in the Autumn's release.

The rhythm is set for Andante . . . Larghetto . . .

. . . Enchanted, enchanted with peace . . .

. . . Enchanted .. enchanted . . .  at peace.

                     

Dorothea Spears


                    Song of Living

Bow to the beat of it, swing to the surge of it;

Tap with the feet of it. answer the urge of it . . .

Life! It is life, brother, feel it and flow with it,

Riotous, beautiful - go with it, glow with it!

Hesitate not on the brink, on the verge of it;

Drink it and think it and marvel and merge with it.

 

Life is a harmony; join in the song of it.!

Life is a unity, enter the throng with it.!

Life is a river, a forest - the scope of it

Staggers the heart and the head with the hope of it.

Life is a fire and the water that cools it:

Life is the earth and the air and Who rules it.

 

Grieve or be gay with it, stay with it, play with it,

Brother. but gratefully go all the way with it.

He who partakes of it most will not boast of it:

He that is one with it, he makes the most of it.

Pain of it, joy of it, load of it, lift of it -

Glory to God for the fabulous gift of it!

 

Dorothea Spears


                  Song Of Silence

Many have praised the beauty of Song.

I sing the beauty of Silence, the long

cool fingers of her, that heal

the wearied heart, that steal

across the aching eyelids, leaving peace.

 

Oh lovely hands, that smooth the crease

of pain from haggard brows, that soothe the deep

red scar of ancient hurts to sleep!

Relaxed, I yield to your caress,

you frail and lovely hands of Quietness.


       Song of the Age

No time –

No time –

All rhyme

All rhyme.


Turn, wheels,

 Faster, faster –

 No man’s

 His own master.

 

All slaves

To sheer speed –

All boasting

One creed;


No faith –

Souls terrene;

One God –

The Machine.

 

No man’s

His master –

Turn wheels,

Faster, faster.


           Song of the Black Sashes

 

Shall we not mourn, brothers, shall we not mourn,

We who have loved liberty more than life.

To see the charter of our freedom torn

And fed into the fires of racial strife?

Shall we not mourn, brothers, we whose sons

Must face the future handcuffed to the past

 

And subject to that rigid rule which stuns

The questing mind to impotence at last?

Shall we not mourn, whose home, whose cherished land

Is hedged about with grim unyielding bars

That separate us from the friendly hand.

Forbid us access to familiar stars?

For us and for our children yet unborn −

Should we not mourn, brothers, should we not mourn?

 

Dorothea Spears


                 Sonlight

We stand in our own light, our frightened blinded earth.

Out of the blue and black shadow of its night,

Out of the indigo that merges the violet and the blue

Strange hallucinations come to birth

Cloaking their unreality with the dark light,

Blurring indeterminable, the glamorous and the true.

We stand in our own light of mind, hemisphere of mind

Forever shadowed by the untransparent form

The edges of the understanding blur, are undefined

Within our self-created night deceiving shadows run

Grotesquely blending and distorting every norm.

We grope in semi-darkness: the blind still lead the blind

Until we turn and catch the radiance of the risen Son

 

Dorothea Spears


                           Sonnet

Thou art not mine, and yet (Dear God, forgive!)

My suffering soul cries out for thee, in vain-

(When hearts are broken why must bodies live

And learn this burning poignancy of pain?)

Thou art so fair- why wast thou made so fair,

Without, within?  My body longs for thee:

The frowning Fates, yea, fires of hell I’d dare

To call thee mine-,ah, the height of ecstasy!


Enough : thou art not mine, nor canst thou be.

Another calls thee dear - the right is his,

And I - but one who loves thee hopelessly;

Poor fool, what fruitless fatal folly ‘tis !

I love thee so- but go now whilst thou can,

For I am but an ordinary man.


                Sonnet 1

Beware idealism. Oh, beware

The longing for perfection: that’s the bird

That stirs the heart to hope, to hope deferred;

The beckoning bird that treads the ambient air

With golden notes, that man can never snare,

Nor yet forget, that makes his fairest word

Seem colourless beside that cadence heard;

Too loved to lose, too beautiful to bear.

Beware the bird, the song, too high, too fair

That dims the beauty of these present things

And drives the aspiration to despair,

Discrediting the songs the sparrow sings.

Beware the bird too beautiful, too rare –

For mortal men only have mortal wings.

 

Airlie Close

Constantia C.P.


             Sonnet At Sunset

 

I stand apart in shadow. Tristful night

Hovers above the distant drowsy hills:

The long, warm tongues of gold Autumnal light

Still lap the valley, and rich silence spills

Across the earth. A waxing saffron ball,

The sun glows and swells and slips away

Silently at last, as leaves fall,

Staining with red the golden rim of day.

 

Ah Love, speak not … break not the golden spell

That thralls a breathless world at beauty’s shrine!

Too soon this splendid loveliness will quell,

But for the moment it is yours and mine

And you and I, immortal, drink the wine

And hold the gold that none can buy or sell.


           Sonnet For Cape Dwellers

We grow to used to beauty, Common ways

In which we tread continuously, blind

Our too accustomed eyes to scenes designed

For rapture, and familiar use betrays

Our senses into somnolence. The days

May scintillate with beauty but we find

-Unless italicized and underlined

By Spring 0r Autumn – we unseeing gaze.

 

As those with too great riches never know

The joy of little things, nor realize

The value of the trifles they despise,

So we, to such rich beauty born, outgrow

Our wonder, taking mountain, sea and skies

And flower and tree for granted as we go.


          Sonnet For The Ungifted

There must be those who listen and are still,

Whose lips can touch to life no trilling flute,

Nor fingers set the fiddle strings a-thrill

In throbbing cadences, whose songs are mute.

There must be those who drink of beauty till

Their souls are lifted, though their hands transmute

No pigments into canvases of skill…

The unknown audience of no repute.

 

As plain and valley complement the hill:

As day to point its fairness needs the night:

As sound needs silence, and as dark needs light –

So beauty craves, its mission to fulfil,

The many who are blessed with gifted sight,

The multitude who listen and are still.


      Soroptimist International Friendship day

For some October’s Autumn

For some it’s Spring

But we share the same sun.

What better thing

To say on Friendship Day

Whatever the weather,

Than just “God bless us

Every one!”

And say it altogether.

 

Cape of Good Hope


           South African Sonnet

My lady is no shy and blushing rose,

No gently nurtured innocent to buy

With words. My love is an aloe flower that grows,

Imperious, beneath an open sky,

Unyielding – hidden thorn and scarlet flame –

To master or be mastered. She demands

No less than all a man can give: her name

Will brook no rival, and her cruel hands

Will tear a man’s heart from his breast and throw

The trophy to the vultures circling above

Before she’ll be content to rest and know

Another shares with her his primal love.

And if I win her love she will not free

My heart or soul this side of Eternity.

 

“Veritas”

Constantia C.P.


            Spacescape

The sun and the moon and the stars…

And a little dark planet hurtling round in space

In a elliptical orbit, holding in its embrace

Millions of tiny humans… and Venus and Mars

And Jupiter watching with curious eyes

Them flinging their feeble pebbles through unmoved skies

In that vast Consciousness that holds and is held

Unseen but sensed, enveloped enveloping, still

And in motion, relaxed intense inexorable exorable will

Pervading and pervaded, impelling and impelled…

And on the little dark planet where One who knew once trod

Every tiny human rightly dreaming himself a god.

 

Veritas

Constantia C.P.


                     Spain

So old is civilization in this place,

So very old the arts and crafts of men

That meet and merge, diverge and blend again

To set the present pattern of the race.

So rich the cultures that have left their trace

Indelible and deep, with brush and pen

And stone and lineament, in now from then,

To form the features of the Spanish face.

 

Great loves and hates and beauty, bitter strife.

And deathless laughter and unquenchable tears,

The victor and the vanquished, loss and gain,

Are melted in the crucible of life

To shape from out the inconceivable years

The richly graven chalice that is Spain.

 

Dorothea Spears


           Spouse To Spouse

“Here is a brand new day for you,” said Time,

And tossed it on my bed and went his way

Looking back over his shoulder to say as he went

“There will never be another just the same,

You know, whatever name you call it by…

No duplicates…” I knew what time meant.

A day holds life – or death – and earth and sky

And sun or rain and loss or gain and joy

And love and beauty: who am I to distain

So great a gift, whatever it may contain?

Handle it carefully. There will never be

Another exactly the same for you and me.

 

Airlie Close

Constantia CP


                 Spring

The blossom-tree lifted empty hands.

And in the morning, lo!

Her empty, hungry, outstretched arms

Were full of blossom snow'.

I, too, will lift my empty hands

To bless the Winter hours

And maybe, some Spring morning, I

Will find them bearing flowers.

 

Dorothea Spears


                Spring

Out of the bitter, North easterly gale,

Out of the cold and the snow

Born of the mist and the sunshine so pale,

Spring is beginning to glow

And the trees are reminded that Death has

Passed by,

As the gentle Spring Zephyr so softly

Doth sigh.

 

Blackened and bare through the Winter they’ve stood,

Never a leaf to be seen,

Never a movement of life in the wood,

Cruel the Frost King has been –

But the buds are beginning to open again,

And the wild birds are winging o’er moorland and fen.

 

Fresh with the green of their youthful life,

Leaflets break out from the bud,

Squirrels awake to the world of strife,

Lizards crawl out of their mud –

And the soul of the world is aroused to the chime

When the wild bluebells ring in the sweet summertime.


                     Spring and Autumn

Of all the year I used to love the Spring

The Best; the magic resurrection time,

When common things touch close on the sublime,

And new life stirs in every vital thing:

When grubs burst forth to multi-coloured wing.

Forsaking their old habitats of slime-

Once it had stirred my heart to ‘raptured rhyme

And flights of fancy such as poets sing.


The Spring, the year’s youngest child is gay

With laughter and delight and youth a-glow;

I used to love her best once, long ago.

And sing of her in restive roundelay.

But now my step more languid is, and slow,

And Autumn better suits my Westward way.


               SPRING AT ZEEKOE VLEI

 

Come with me to a spot I know

No more than a bul-bul’s flight from Town,

When spring has bidden the lilies blow

And covered the meadows with drifted snow

That men call daisies, and necklaced down

On the willing arms of the waiting trees

Showers of golden rosaries,

Threaded with beads as soft as wool,

As gold as the sunlight on the pool.

 

And in this magic circle of gold

The dear Earth’s arms are overfull,

Are almost fuller than she can hold

Of blue lobelias shining eyed,

And wild nemesias side by side

With golden flowers that men call weeds.

And the Afrikander’s wild sweet scent –

Ah, one would circle a continent

To smell again in an old Cape field,

Modest and humble and half concealed –

All spring’s perfume in one chalice blent!

 

The throbbing bosom of Mother Earth

Thrills again to the singing mirth

Of mating birds, and in the reeds

Where the Vlei is shadowed and cool and still

The coots and the ducks, with busy bill

Are fashioning nests for their spring time needs.

And in the pastel of morn and eve

The bul-buls shout, and the wood doves grieve,

And the tern, like leaflets that flutter and loop

From some celestial and unseen plane

To the waters surface, then rise and swoop;

In the intricate maze of a ballet troupe

They dip and curtsey, and then are fled

Into the face of the laughing sun –

A flight of silver arrows sped!

The egrets, in low level flight

Westward turn as the shoes of night

Darken the hills, and one by one

She sets the lamps of Heaven alight

In silent beauty.  And day is done.

 

Oh, come with me to a spot I know

When spring is wearing her golden gown!

The meadows are sprinkled with daisy snow

And hosts on hosts of lilies blow,

No more than a bul-buls flight from Town…

And say if there is a spring more fair

Than ours, with the lilies in her hair!


               Spring Ecstasy

I am a part of all life … no tall tree,

Nor chattering rivulet, nor daisied hill,

No rocky pinnacle aloof and still,

But bears some kinship to the life of me.

This immemorial Spring’s awakening thrill;

The rising sap, the bursting bud, the will

To beauty and to immortality.

With every heaven-ascending lark I rise;

In every lilac bush my breath is rife;

Yet am I part, too of the lowly sod

And have my portion in the vaulting skies.

I am a drop of the throbbing blood of life

That pulses, glowing, from the heart of God.


            Spring is an Individual Thing

To every living thing its own Spring.

For who can say what day- the sap shall rise

Or when a bud shall open sealed eyes.

Or bid a chrysalis become a wing?

The one tree murmurs “Winter . . . no birds sing”.

Another turns in his sleep and scans the skies

And cries “It's Spring!" and eager sap replies

To each his moment of awakening.

For day comes vibrant over valley and hill

Telling the selfsame tale: and who can say

Why one awakes, and another is sleeping still

And who can say why love should blossom gay

In one heart, nor another, as it will . . .

And how, and where, and why: and on what day?

Dorothea Spears


               Spring is important                                                

When you come within shouting distance

Of threescore years and ten

Spring becomes important,

For then you never know

How many Springs are left

To bring you daffodils

And spill the vivid vygies

Over the hills and fill

The arms of waiting trees

With blossom, leaf and song

After the long winter . . .

Or if the day will come

When the miracle of Spring

Will call in vain

And the heart remain dumb.

Dorothea Spears


             Spring Journey

I have returned from very far away,

From Stellenbosch, along the Faure Road,

And from the distant portals of the day

Through which the wells of beauty overflow;

From realms of bursting bud and tender leaf,

Of golden wattle bloom and daisied earth

And life escaping from a wintry sheath

And meadows redolent with lined mirth…

Beside the borders of eternity

I saw the mountain ranges. Tranquil-browed,

The distant gleam of lapis lazuli,

The radiant glory of the billowing cloud…

Bereft of speech, I could but stare and stare

At life almost too beautiful to bear

 

“Veritas”

Constantia, C.P.


               Spring Oaks

The oaks, in their diaphanous gown, Spring-spun,

Ephemeral, or iridescent sheen,

Are setting traps for the unwary sun

And catching sunbeams in their finger’s green.

They hold them tangles in their finger tips

As if they themselves were sources of the light!

And all day long the verdant sunlight drips

In dappled pools upon the pavement bright.

Within each vernal cage the golden rays

Are prisoned by the leaves the whole day long.

But lest such beauty blind our mortal gaze

They seek the sun again at evensong.

 

Wherever oaks forgather, hand to hand,

When Spring’s a stripling – there is Fairyland!


                         Spring Of Home

To-night I feel that I would willing sell

My very birthright for a taste of Spring.

-      The Spring of Home, when every living thing

Is finding life anew; the buds that swell

And burst to leaf and blossom, winds that tell

Of flowing sap, and birds that mate and sing

In ecstasy; gay moths on new-found wing-

The Spring of Home, when Earth breaks Winter’s spell!


The time of resurrection – aye, the Spring!

That calls to life so many sleeping things

Of which it has been said, “Behold, they die.”

Spring is so potent, mayhap it might bring

To my dead heart new life, and hope that sings,

And so might I awaken – even I!


               Spring Tenderness

There is a tenderness behind the Spring

That hurts the heart and haunts the edge of the mind

Like something unfulfilled, something designed

To be remembered, but forgot . . . a wing

Unspread, that might have lifted . . .  or a ring

Of words unsaid, ungifted, unrefined

Unmanifest.     If only I could find

What haunts the heart in Spring. I'd know a thing,

A thing I have forgot, or never known -

The secret pain of beauty and of birth.

Why beauty hurts and bounty harbours dearth.

Could I recall that half-remembered tone

That frees the flower in the seed, the sword in the stone,

I’d sense the yearning of Spring returning to earth.

 

Dorothea Spears


                              SPRING’S MIRACLE.

I thought I had forgotten : but as Spring
Awakes the winter-slumb’ring daffodils.

And snows white daisies over all the hills,

While in the woods fresh frondling fingers cling
Like infant fingers, and the pine-trees fling
Their sweet strong scent that all the forest fills.
And all the soul of Nature lives and thrills
Responsive to the song the south winds sing.

So now the miracle of Spring awakes
The winter-slumb’ring thoughts within my breast:
With all the poignant beauty of the new
Regeneration, with a sweet that aches.

Ineffable and sad; renewed by rest,

The Spring revives the last year’s dreams—and you.


              Spring's unrest

Spring is not a handmaid of content

But rather a hungry henchman of unrest

Calling the unrepentant to repent

And underlining an uncompleted quest.

Spring is a ringing challenge, a taunt, a dare,

Stirring the sap and bidding the bud increase.

Spring is a fire in the blood, an urge in the air.

Spring is a bringer of beauty, but not of peace.

Life is aware of the wonder under the flower

And bud and leaf, of the energy undeterred

By earth resistance, the stirring of the power

Of the word spoken in Spring and loudly heard.

Content is lent for harvest, a finished thing;

But life has need of courage to cope with Spring.

 

Dorothea Spears


               Spring Is A Time To Loiter

Now must I loiter on the road to Town.

A different note is sounding in the breeze:

A gentler hand is smoothing Winter’s frown,

And brave new pennants flutter in the trees.

For Spring is stealing back and scattering

Her treasures for discerning eyes to find;

And listening ears can hear the pattering

Of delicate feet upon the road behind.

O Eye, discerning be!     And Listen Ear!

Shy Spring has such a little time to stay

And comes to visit only once a year …

So I must loiter on my Townward way

Lest I should miss some lovely, transient thing

That Summer snatches from the hand of Spring.


                         Starlings

They say –

(It may be so)

When starlings come to stay

All others go.

At Zeekoe Vlei

I only know

My starlings nest all day,

Yet hosts of birds fly to and fro

Till all the air is gay

With feathered folk at play:

And when Jan Groentjie flames low

The starlings run away!

 

“Oaklands”

Newlands Ave

Newlands, C.P.


              Stored sunshine

See how the sunlight spills across

that patch of earth

beneath the naked plane,

and fills the startled sight

with golden mirth.

I lift glad eyes to scan

the leaden skies and find

no shaft of sun

that could endow such light.

At last I understand -

Lord, this sunlight's stored

and second hand, and wills

to flood this ground again

from daffodils!

 

Dorothea Spears


                 STRANGE PERIL

Shall I protect my bodies in a shell
Of armoured love imperviously wrought
To parry all the barbs of poisoned thought
And all intangible attacks repel?

Or should I go unarmed, as knowing well
The spirit’s power for immunizing aught
That harms the spirit—thus I have been taught;
Resist not, but accept, absorb, dispel?

Deflected darts can find another mark
And wound the sender or attack some other
Vulnerable to their deadly kiss.

But darts destroyed strike no man in the dark.
Infect at last no unprotected brother . . .

Is my young magic strong enough for this?


                  Stripling Spring

Unwilling winter abdicates

In favour of a stripling spring;

Birds wedded only yesterday

Can find no bridal songs to sing.

 

I am not ready for the spring,

Content in winter’s arms to be,

Bleak comfort taking from the thought

That spring’s not ready for me!


                 Stripped

Sometimes the cloaks of make-believe man wears

To shield him from the verities are blown

Asunder by some mighty wind that bares

His unaccustomed torso to bone.

Sometimes a sudden lightning flash reveals

The undiscovered contours of the plain

That ordinary night and day conceals

And nothing can ever be the same again.

A single blinding moment of truth can blast

A lifetime’s woven wishful fabric away

And topple the edifices of the past

And bare the shivering unadorned clay.

But it is from such naked moments of ruth

That man can rise and clothe himself in truth.

 

Airlie Close

Constantia. C.P.


            Subversion

I say Christ came to lay the one foundation

On which to build God’s Kingdom on the earth;

The corner stone for an enduring nation,

The fundamental Law of final birth:

-      To Love Thy God With Heart and Soul and Mind,

Thy Neighbour as Thyself – by this alone

Can any civilisation hope to find

Enduring life… upon this corner stone.

With dogma and with creed we overlay

The simple truth, and forfeit our salvation;

With multiplicity of laws betray,

And sell His unity for separation.

And, blind and deaf of indisputable reason,

Men commit again the ultimate treason.

 

Veritas

Constantia C.P.


              Summer’s End

Now, when the first frail leaves are slowly drifting

Lightly, lightly down from the dreaming trees;

Now, with the last of Summer’s roses lifting

Fragrant lips to the kiss of the listless breeze,

While thirsty flowers droop lovely heads, appealing

Vainly to the mute uncertain skies,

And silent footed mists return, instealing

At eventide, and the first bird homeward flies:

Though peace be scored in every dreaming valley

Some subtle change of tempo in each day,

Although procrastinating Summer daily,

Proclaims that Winter is upon his way.

So some crescendo in my own pulse beating

Gives warning that life’s summer, too, is fleeting.


            Sunday After Christmas

The day began with a rainbow in the mist

That hid the mountain yet I did not guess,

Selecting blossoms from the blue rain-kissed

Hydrangeas, what it held of happiness −

A meeting with old friends along the way

A summer's day where sun and shadow blend

To turn the drive along the fairest Bay

To blue delight. and peace at journey's end.

And then, replete with turkey, talk and sleep,

A shady gorge, deep pools, a waterfall,

A wealth of trees and, given them to keep

A flame of disas on the mountain wall . . .

The evening plumed an angel in the sky

With outstretched arms . . . How rich, how rich am I

      

3/12/59          Dorothea Spears


                             Sunset

The daintiest, paintiest powder-puffs,

Of pink, from a cloak of blue,

And a paling, trailing wisp of scarf

In an airier, fairier hue,

The angels dropped at the gates of heaven

(I saw them!) as they went through.


             Sunset : Groot Constantia

             (From the Governor looks back)

Surely, if there be such a thing as peace

Upon this turning, vastly troubled sphere –

Surely, if there be such a thing as rest

On this inconstant earth, it should be here.

 

The molten sun of waning afternoon

Is mellowed by approaching eventide.

The sweeping shadows of the oaks grow long

Upon the umber ground; and on the wide

White gable’s face are pencilled lines of shade:

The vineyard wall is rich with shadows pied.

Constantia’s guardian mountain soon will screen

The homestead from the sun’s warm glances,

Throwing a broadened silhouette across the vale,

Bringing cool relief to vineyards growing

In verdant ranks; while on the distant sea

And glistening sand the sun will still be glowing,

And on the further mountains, drowsing pink

Against a pastel-pink Veridian sky.

 

This is the hour when Simon loves to walk

Beneath his trees, to watch the slow day die:

Or, sitting on the broad flagged stoep, to dream

Of days to come, and of the days gone by;

To watch the shadows creep along the land.

Incarnadined, the distant mountains blaze

In splendour, setting fire to sea and sand,

While all Creation stands in mute amaze

Until, the mighty conflagration done,

They fade into the all-enfolding haze

And darkness seals the eager eyes of day.

 

The full moon, rising, etches the far-off hills

And floods the world with her ethereal light;

Even the voice of the doves complaining stills.

The Cape is gathering beneath the wings of night

And peace of God the sleeping valley fills.

 

 

Epilogue

… So Simon dreams alone …yet not alone.

Across the years the shadowy figures troop

To join him, while the tender wings of night

About the dreaming homestead softly droop,

And hover o’er the Star of Van der Stel

Embedded in the stonework of the stoep.

A shaft of light across the half-door falls

And on the broad mosaic pattern drips

From slave-lit lamps, and Simon, seeing, nods.

“Of nectar and of gall the same mouth sips,

For life is made of light and shade and now

The Star of Van dee Stel is in eclipse.

But when the unborn days shall come to light

These vines will speak for me; these oaks will tell

That I have loved this land with all my heart;

That I have served her faithfully and well.

Another generation shall arise

Whose sons will bless the name of Van der Stel.”

 

 

No alien sound the peaceful silence mars:

The lights are snuffed, encroaching shadow steeps

The homestead, shutters closed and dropped the bars.

The mountain her eternal vigil keeps:

The velvet night is tremulous with stars…

In dreaming beauty Groot Constantia sleeps.


                 Superannuate

So many songs I've sung, so many songs,

Sitting by myself in the sunshine

Or mingling in the streets with the throngs.

So many tears I've dried, so many tears,

Sitting by myself in the twilight

Or comforting the children of their fears.

So many dreams I've had, so many dreams,

Sitting by myself in the sunrise

Or following another's distant gleams.

So much of thought I've found, so much of thought,

Sitting by myself in the starlight

Or − weighing all the morals men have taught. −

How much of truth have I? How much of truth,

Sitting by myself in the sunset

Gleaning teaching age and questing youth?

But this I know − I've had my share of beauty,

Walking by myself in the − silence

Or treading with mankind the way of duty.

So let the setting sun go down, go down,

Sitting by myself in the open

Or walking with my friends in the town,

 

Dorothea Spears


                   Surprise Sonnet

                        (In Hospital)

Here was silence; here an interlude

That's unfamiliar . . . tryst with stranger hours

That chart a depth of deeper solitude

And nebulously touch mysterious powers.

Emerging through this limitless serene −

Your messages. your gifts, your gracious flowers

Were woven through the subtly changing scenes

And touched to living beauty pain-edged bowers.

The colours of the rainbow . . . all the scent

Of all the blossoms found a rich release

And drifted in and out of that content

Wherein I floated in a dream of peace.

. . . As if I caught the thought of countless friends

Who shaped their wills to fashion happy ends.

 

Dorothea Spears

30/5/59


                 Surprised by Joy.

To-day the tethered bird within me sings and soars like a lark above these pave­ments gray              

That floor the heavens and ceil the earth,

Today There is an urgent lifting of the wings

That carries me above the clouds and brings

Myself into the orbit of the gay

Unceasing sun, a weeping world away

From earthly overcast and shadowed things.

If you unwittingly have walked some hill

And suddenly have stirred a lark to rise

And vanish into song against the skies

From just beside your feet when all was still -

Then you will know - how a burst of song can fill

Your universe with jubilant replies.

 

Dorothea Spears


            Swan Song of the Oaks

They say the swan sings once, the one song

Of such surpassing beauty that the ear

On which it falls forevermore shall hear

That haunting melody a whole life long.

The music of the Autumn is bright and strong:

 

As the little death of winter draws near

In haunting melody year after year

The oak trees sing their golden swan song.

It stirs the heart with such a wild delight

That happiness is half akin to sorrow

Matching the magic of the wooded hill −

Because it knows the swan, and death, and night

And Spring − and that the Winter comes tomorrow,

And that the swan sings once and then is still.

 

Dorothea Spears


                     SWEET NARCISSI, ENGLISH VIOLETS.

Take them away. The fragrance is too fraught
With poignant memory to bring me aught
But pain. There are so many flowers in bloom—
Why did you choose these two whose fond perfume
Brings back so sorely that I would forget—

The dear old days, with all the old regret?

What strange Fate made you pick these, to your pain,
To resurrect that olden love again ?

I scarce had thought of it within the year,

(So soon can one surrender sorrows dear.)

And you—my heart had nearly come to care
As you desired, until these flowers so fair
Brought vivid life to those near-dead regrets
Ah, sweet narcissi, English violets!


     Sweet Peace To Every Heart This Night

Sweet peace to every heart this night

The angel choirs still sing

The star still leads with guiding light,

The wise men to their king,

And every heart where love has birth

May hear the message still

Of “Peace on earth! Sweet peace on earth

To all men of good will!”

 

Though loud the sounds of discord roll

And doubt engenders fear

‘Tis only Hate makes deaf the soul:

And the wise men still can hear

In every heart where love has birth

The promise echoes still

Sweet peace on earth! Sweet peace on earth

To all men of good will!”


                    Symbol

So he has been a carpenter, to fashion

The everlasting cross, and sign His name.

The instrument of unity and passion

He shaped and bore and wore, and so became.

The mortal and immortal forces ply

The vertical and horizontal spars

Uniting, where they cross, the earth and sky.

The weeping women and the singing stars.

"And I, if I be lifted up," He said,

"Draw all men unto Me." Oh, not in vain

His craft!  The lightning played about His head,

The separating veil was rent in twain.

And He became the Cross. the brooch to bind

The earth and heaven, God of humankind.

 

Dorothea Spears

 


 

 

 

 

 



 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                 

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